Learning

I had spent less and less time deliberating over the Big X, as I was trying to move past Jew Boy. I has having a dull night when I dialed The Big X to share with him the details of my recent date. It was not to gloat, but a serious situation in which I almost got hurt, badly. Without going into grave detail here, I went out with a guy that treated me so poorly that I could have filed charges on him.

After sharing the story with The Big X, he immediately put the phone down and headed over. He was highly distraught and genuinely worried about me. We talked for a hours about all of the details. He said if he saw the boy who hurt me, he might go to jail for beating him. When I asked why he came over, he told me it was because he loved me so much.

I let him stay over. There were kisses exchanged, but that was it. He acted as if he wanted sex with me, but never acted on it. It was almost as if he didn't expect to be in that situation and hadn't thought about what he would do if he were.