Over

I got the answer to all of the questions that I had been analyzing over the last months. It was over. Jew Boy was no longer. It played out by him finally calling after a few days of hibernation. I knew there was something wrong, it was in his voice. He told me that he felt terrible for the way that he had been treating me. Not calling and being distant. He acknowledged that he had never shared his feelings for me and it was time that he did.

He started, " I like you. I think you are amazing in all that you are. I love being with you, talking to you and have a great time every time we are together. You are everything that I have ever wanted. I have been in a hole the last week trying to figure out exactly how I feel about you. I have concluded that there is 'something' missing. There is a feeling that is missing for me, one that I have felt before in a previous relationship. It is not there with you. I am not all I can be when I am with you. You are not getting all of me because I am not giving it to you. It is not tangible, not explainable."

I sat in silence, part of me stunned, the other half knew it was coming. He continued, "I knew when you wanted me to meet your sister, that you were serious about me. It was then that I realized that you had not even met my parents. This is not normal for me. I am telling you all of this because you have always been open with me and I don't want to mislead you. At some point, I feel it is necessary to evaluate a relationship and decide to take it to the next level or not. This one is not there for me."

Next, he asked if we could still be friends because he didn't want to lose me from his life. I told him that I thought it would be too difficult on me because of how emotionally involved I was. He admitted that he was too, and said he didn't what to hurt me even more, so he would proceed however I wanted. I explained that the sexual attraction would be too much to overcome if we met in person. He agreed with that, but said that he wanted me to call anytime I wanted. He said, "I will always take your calls because I think of you fondly. I will miss going out with you and talking to you. I will miss you."

I sat in silence.