Again Still Trolling

With all of the recent downed events, I was still hoping that the relationship with Jew Boy would work out. We had an amazing connection, sexual and otherwise. Something that I deemed real. With all of this said, there was still the issue of him constantly being "Online Now" trolling for other women.

The website where we met granted me the ability to view his online practices. I will admit that I had a slight obsession of checking up on him. I wanted to know what he was doing and who he was doing it with. It seemed that his online frequencies had increased over time. I was irritated, but more than than that I was hurt. When I would visit the site to see that his profile was online, a knot would develop in the pit of my stomach. It made me terribly weak. And furious.

I had to address this issue with him, I just didn't know how. After pondering over the situation and viewing his habits, I decided to send him a "wink." (This site allows their customers to show interest in someone by winking at them). I recognized this would get my point across, but still in a subtle way. There might have been a more mature action plan for the confrontation, but fuck he wasn't exactly in that mode either.

When I got to work, I logged onto the site. Bam, he was online right then, so with trepidation, I winked. I wanted him to see it in the early morning and think about it all day. I don't know if I accomplished just that, but he did respond to me through my regular email account. All it said was 'why are you winking at me?' By this short response, I figured he was pissed. This is not exactly what I had intended to do, but I did want his attention.

To be fair, I called him and made it all into a light hearted joke. I started, "I got your email today and decided to call and answer your question." He laughed and said, "Why were you winking at me?" Like he didn't know? I replied, "Because you are a sexy bitch and you looked like you would be good in bed!"

He knew what I wanted, so he openly started talking this trolling habits. He admitted to checking the site everyday, but just out of curiosity. Really? He was frank with me, but I am not sure entirely honest. I felt compelled to acknowledge that the real reason I winked was to relieve tension. We both knew that each other were still on the site, but we had always outright avoided the topic.

After exchanging stories and our thoughts on our dating experiences, he said that he had not met any other girls after we starting seeing each other, but had a few short exchanges online, that never left the computer. I said, "Well, I don't know what you are looking for on there, but you will never find anyone better than me." At first, he only laughed at my very honest comment, but then admitted that he knew that. At least the fucker knew that much.