His Personality

An explanation eventually transpired as to why Jew Boy never over asked questions or probed me for answers on any topic. With a highly laid-back personality, he thought that building a relationship was about letting things happen and unfold, therefor develop. We had open communication, in the way of me being able to ask anything, anytime. He was always free and honest with his answers, but never reciprocated in giving me the same type of quizzes. This drove me crazy by making me believe that he just wasn't that into me. He was intelligent and overly observant, but in a quiet way, so maybe he knew more than I gave him credit for.

Moving slowly was a product of him. His personality. I don't think I would have lasted as long as I did, if he had been any other way. At the same time, I hated that he didn't push. I wanted just a little more than what I got.

Is simply "letting things evolve" the way this life is suppose to happen? This is not my outlook. I am unable to sit back and let some other power take over my life. In whatever I am doing, I feel an overwhelming drive to always be in control, a product of being highly driven. How will I ever learn if it is right, if I don't ask the questions? If I don't push, will I ever get what I want?

Maybe this is irrational thinking. Maybe it is who I am. There are times when I wish I could be more laid back. But then again, would I be where I am today if I were more laid back? The circle continues.