Blinded by the Sex

I didn't have an issue with Jew Boy being Jewish. I was open to any and all ideas, but I was unsure that he was as open as I. My writings read like the confused sole I was.

"With the bombshell, I don't know if I could imagine my life with him. I do like him, but I need to decide if I can moved forward with this or if we need to be cut off. He is very different from me in his habits and in his likes. He treats me well and lets me be center stage. Everything is easy with and for him, but we grew up very differently. I don't know if he understands how much so. I do and it scares me. I know this answers will come in time. For now, I am excited to see him tomorrow and for that great sexual chemistry that we have. I never want that to go away."

I have a problem opening my eyes when I am in a relationship. I have a tendency to move forward blindly, unable to critically analyze my situation. If I had been able to do that with Jew Boy, I would have had my answer to many of my questions. It seems from the writings, I was ignoring way too many issues that were never going away. Maybe this time, I was blinded by the sex. Ah, the sex.