Second Try

The first letter was read and I hope he shed at least a tear or two for the rivers I cried for him. The following is the second letter I sent.

"I am once again writing freely about my thoughts and I hope you will take them to heart. The last few weeks have given me much time to think about our relationship; how your personally unhappiness was effected and what happened to us. These are only partial thoughts, but I feel like they raise a good point.

I was completely comfortable in our relationship and know that you were too. I remember that you recently told me that you were very secure in our relationship. I can’t speak for you, but do believe that you and I were both were so comfortable that, we were not trying. Basically, I feel our relationship got into a rut of going through the motions and not connecting like we had in the past. It was a bad cycle and I realize that now. In many ways, it made both of us unhappy. I was existing in the relationship, wanting but not giving enough back. We were not thinking, talking or focusing on each other for the right reasons. In a serious relationship of this length of time, there are always ups and downs; things that are not always perfect. I think sometimes you have to go through the bad to get to the good. Sometimes things have to be difficult just to see the good. If it would not have come to this, we would have continued on the same path and therefore we would not have had the great memories from last Sunday. Somehow, Someway we lost each other and what was important to and for us, but we can find it again.

I think we need a reconnection; a perspective change. We need to remember why we liked, loved and chose each other in the first place. We need to ask what we liked about our relationship and how it changed. We need to know why we were happy together and how that gave us five amazing years. It would be nice to find that connection I had with you because I know it is still there. It was on Sunday when we saw each other. I was nervous, excited and my heart was pounding when you got here. So much so that I had butterflies! It was a feeling that I had not felt in a long time and it was awesome. We had a great time together and I feel that is because we were absolutely focused on each other.

We have to be open about our highs and lows together. We have to not be scared to talk about anything or ignore feelings that we are having. We have to be nice to each other, say nice things and do nice things for each other. Not because we have to, but because we want to. When we are together, we need to focus on each other, but most importantly we need to have fun together (which was never hard for us)!

Our feelings toward each other have not changed that is clear to me in these past weeks. We just need to rediscover each other. We need do things that make life easier for both of us. We did many things and handled many situations in the hardest way possible. We need to do what is natural. I believe with all of my heart and sole that our relationship can be better than it was before. It is my hope that you can step outside of yourself and see the truth in this letter. I love you with all that I am."